Me with my fav lecturer Ms Uma Devi who is no longer with us. She has proved herself as a role model to her students, especially ones like me. I am so thankful for her.
Having been much of a thinker for most part of my life – I have been thinking ever since I existed, and I am still thinking just so you know, and not only as a thinker, but also as an experimenter – I have arrived at the conclusion. This one conclusion shall be the slogan for the reconstruction of the self. It shall be the ideology upon which my life is based.
My entire days in the past was based on what had occurred in the past. I was brilliant enough to adopt a theory about the formation of one’s unique personality, but stupid enough to attach myself to the wrong one. Yeah, I am beautiful; that is because I look 99.9% like my dad, what with the deep-set almond eyes and full lips. Yeah, I am smart; because Germans are the most intelligent creatures standing (yet high-flying!) and my great-grandmother happens to be German.
It got the better of me though. Strains in the parental relationships made me a scapegoat for whatever I was doing. I got hurt, and then my friends and colleagues and bosses got hurt also, and then finally I got hurt again. Gah! I practically began bashing my head up to bring back my own senses. However, the whole cycle of negativity seemed to be revolving itself on me, because I was trying to predict the outcomes of my actions! Do you spot the humongous head-egg (sic) that is growing out of the blue?
All because of the psychoanalytic theory. Come on, psychoanalysis is so old-school. It is the theory introduced by Sigmund Freud – and boy, aren’t his words and thoughts bewilderingly interesting! It is the technique used for certain people during their visits to the psychologist – but I am not a patient!
Yet I am. Because of that, I have decided to to close the horrid book on my own psychoanlaysis, skip through several chapters, and land, safely I hope, on the one about positive psychology, the school brought about by Dr Martin Seligman.
It is extremely simple. Smile. Think happy. Be happy. Act happy. And stay happy.
Word of Caution: I sort of experiment with people; yeah, that is what I do. Not for the fun of it, but rather to study their reactions.